i am always sensitive towards people, subjects and places- yet i am always positive as well. i believe things happen for a reason and people enter and exit your life because that’s just what happens. some come and go without warning, some moments dramatic, but most of these people, places and things- they leave some sort of impact- that impact isn’t what defines you, but it’s what helps you learn to live or to let go, depending on the circumstances. where am i going with this? i don’t know… but try to follow as i put myself out there for anyone to see.
life changing news develops, something happens that you didn’t think would ever be possible- you’re happy, but also confused.
what do you do? well i cried for a few days, apologized and felt bad for everyone, but myself. life is so much easier when you’re the cause and effect- when you’re in control, but now there are third parties involved that don’t realize it. they didn’t plan for this, you didn’t plan for this, but it happened… subconciously, you must have wanted this to happen. it was bound to happen, FINALLY IT HAPPENED?!
it may not have happened as you had dreamt about growing up, but it’s happening. do you run, do you hide, is mission aborted? never. you deal with it like you dreamt of dealing with it. giving it everything- your all. your dreams have turned into a possible dysfunction to others, but that’s your decision and you turn this into one of the most rewarding experiences. you keep it. that is my decision.
third party may want something different, so be it. you give them their option, regardless, be happy with what they decide. they didn’t ask for this to happen, but again.. it happened. hope for the best, maybe they will come around.
all i have ever wanted was unconditional love with someone of my own, we all share unconditional love with others, maybe it’s selfish- but finally this is my chance and it’s growing inside of me.
i am telling you now, i am going to love you for who you are; you will experience life like i did, freely and openly- if you want, but hopefully you will be wiser and you will learn from my mistakes and heart breaks, but know that the lessons you will learn will be that of your own and the outcome is what you make it to be- always strive for the best and expect nothing less.
you were created for a reason, that reason may be “unknown,” but i really believe it was for me. i have thanked god for you every night.